“I was born to suffer.” Erica Silva recalls abortion and several striking losses

Nthe second gala of the “Big Brother All Stars”, which took place on Sunday, September 20, was shown the Curve of Life of Erica Silva, which was mainly marked by his decision to have an abortion and the striking losses he has already suffered. 

At 10, remember, he was marked with the death of cousin, who died hit by a car. “He came down from our house to play ball and someone rings the bell and asks us to come down because there had been an accident, and I came down and got to see my cousin still extended. He went in the ambulance and he never came back. And our Christmases ended here,” he said.

Several years later, the eldest aunt's son died, which made Christmas stop making sense again. “ We stopped living the Christmases again because the person who dressed as Santa Claus, who was my eldest aunt's son, died. Every time we try to get Christmas back, it feels like something happens.”

He then moved on to the moment he met a special person. “I have always been the night girl. Since I was 16, I worked nights in bars, and a friend's invitation came up if I wanted to go to Vila Real during the three months of summer to work in a disco. That's when I met John and fell in love with him. That's when they called me at the Secret Story 4 castings. My secret was: I keep a list of all my sexual relationships. I've been severely criticized by other people because I've never been judged or criticized by mine“, he recalled. 

And then he lost someone close. Before the final, in December, saw his best friend leave in december 2013but i didn't know until the day you left the reality show. 

Then “he regained his joy and entered the “Final Challenge 2” very fragile.” “I don’t know how, but I won. I think I survived because it was really hard.”

In 2014, he also recalled, found the one who “he thought he was going to be the man of his life”. And, reports, invited him to move in with you, however, says, it was “the worst thing you have ever done in your life – putting that person inside your home.”.

“ It was someone who really hurt me, lied to me, so I don't trust anyone. I lowered myself every day and I still loved him. I got my ass kicked every day, even in coming to a "Final Challenge 3" and he put girls in my house, and I stayed in this relationship. There was a lot of psychological violence. We came to assault each other and that was the end of it“, shared.

“I called his father to pick him up because he was locked in the kitchen with a knife pointed at him, because he had hit me and broke my phone. I felt empty. In spite of everything, I think I always wanted him in my life”, detailed. 

After all this, he confessed, waited for him to call him one day. “It’s to be stupid. After two years and something he called. And he came into my house again. One more mistake.”

In that time, admit, “He made a lot of mistakes, drank a lot, and one of those nights he stayed with him, he got pregnant. “But I couldn’t because I knew all the crap I did. I felt really desperate and didn't want to have a child in the world to suffer. He already had two children of different mothers. Obviously he didn't want to be a father again. I knew he was gonna make my life black with this kid. I've decided to [an abort]. He took two things from me that I wanted: to be a mother and to marry.”

Asked about the day of the intervention, he said: “It was horrible. On the outside it was fresh and cute, but inside it was dead. Rotten. He knew it was this day and he only cared until I told him it was over. Then we never had contact again, I don't care about that person in my life or painted by another. From then on my life took another course.”

In 2020, Erica Silva mourned again. She lost her godmother, the “second mother and who always protected her”. “I think I was born to suffer. Despite having very good things throughout life, I was born to suffer”, he said. 

But it didn't stop here. In 2024, he entered the “Big Brother – Final Challenge” and also had a great friend to die. She was expelled in one of the votes and “had time to say goodbye to him”. “He is my guardian angel.”.